HER HONORABLE SUICIDE NOTES.
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C h r i s t i n a. Age 21ish. Student. Full time sleeping beauty. Part time graphic designer, gamer and ass kicker literally... LOL.
Always plugged into rock, indie electro, dubstep and pop sometimes. Dating a fat lazy bum bum name Jacob Lim.
Lives on black and soya bean. Learning how to walk on killer heels and you.
Monday, December 24, 2007
went clubbing last sat. wickedly fun. keep group hopping in the club. a moment im with my design girlies, next i hopped to matt's group, next i hope to Alan side, next im with my hock posse. wahaha... was meant to hang with Amelia, Eulisa, Magan and Mark but i kept group hopping till zouk was too crowded for me to spot them. i didnt drank alot but drank fast. 2 e33 in less den 20 mins ( another bottle is at another hr) . plus one bottle is mixed with beer ( taste nice!), i had a few slips of long island and screw driver as well. got pretty darn high. aint wasted yo and nv will be ya. ;)
this time, is not the hock pple ( Jojo, Max Shark) stayed and look after me. Alan did. a guy i met in zouk half a year ago and we are still frens. he really nice, everytime i go zouk chillout and if he was there. he always look after me. ( nv took advantage, hey, im christina leh. box him if he dare) so sweet eh? if hard to find real friends esp ppl u met in clubs. halfway, Alan went to have a great time dancing with girl ( apparently is Max's fren!) den i was there dancing like a mad woman again. vs shuffle with shark. he improved! Jojo too! man... my running man still sucks! but i still win them! WUAHAHAHA... *evil shark took care of me when im giving nut and bull again. thanks you bugger.
anywy, had an awesome time c-walking and shuffling. till got a moment i break away from my fren for a moment. this guys came to me and said. "why are u shuffling to rnb?" " why not ? im c- walking too aint i?" hahahaha... his frene got my number and freaking irritating. GO AWAY. hahaha. anywy im mean enough in the msg till he stopped.
at this moment i jus finished watching Stardust online. nice man. too bad i missed it when its on the big screen. at least i did caught the storyline. damn sweet lah the movie. oh wells.
btw... MERRY JOLLY CHRISTMAS PPLE! didnt manage to do all my x'mas shopping so im still quite frantic in finding buy to do last min shopping. sucks indeed but still man...
i hereby wishes YOU a flaming christmas and a hot santa this year ya. peace! and may u spray shit amount of foam at ya friends, enemy and bagalas. hahahaha!
>.<
5:08 AM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
frantically finding pple to acc me go shopping and club today. arghs, i need my christmas shopping as well as grabbin a present for Am. tml is her birthday celebration. woohoo! i love celebrations! plus with christmas round the corner, is more loves!
anywy all my darlings are workin or either acc their family out. baahs. and im here rotting along typing and complaining to Mr blogger. i rather call blogger a 'HE' is becuz male genders are like nicer to bully at. ahaha no? i dunno? nvm. -.- im bored.
21973*^%!* BORED! i wan to go out shoppin. im meetin Eulisa later at 6 to art fren, acc her to get some stuff. den afterwards hitting zouk! woohoo.. clubbing with de design homies. how's tt sound ?
btw, im so bored tt i could even bother to go check out my ex bf friendster profile. seeing him makes me sicks as well as misses the part of him tt he used to be a part of me. now he got long hair. looks . . . not so nice. i preferred his old short manly hair.
K TT'S NOT THE POINT.
and fyi, ive got over him long ago. im jus like to diss abt him for awhile since im BORED. hahaha... looking at those pics. i cant stand some pics. dont ask me why. it jus . . . IRKS ME. seeing the one u used to love is now like a total stranger is seriously pretty strange. *eye brows . . . oh wells. and here the 'best' part. seeing he still wear the stuff u got for him and gg out with the gf is even more 'WONDERFOOL' and still own his previous gf STUFF AND MONEY. fuck man. most of the stuff he wore like 90% are mine and wad ive chosen! drats... freako mathufarker airhead shitdickie asshoe!! ( sorry ;P)
seeing him so fast get gf ! wad the girl sees in her! ( and wad ive seen in HIM in the past, vomits) den im still available. wait. why m i whining about being single?
I LOVE BEING SINGLE ! so much so tt i kinda love being alone. till ppl tot tt im emoing. nonsense. perhaps i missed being loved. thinking back, woah. ive been single for 10 months so already. so long? it felts so short. maybe i enjoyed single life so much so tt time flies so fast tt felt so short.
anywy, i reckon tt is when all my frens aint available to acc me. i might felt jus a little lonely. alittle i guess? alittle? haha hence, complains about me aint getting any hot guy craze abt me yo. BAKA. why is this sort of crap coming out of me. zzz -.-
c'mon LOVE IS UTTERLY BLIND AND SUICIDAL! eh... to certain extend i guess.
eh ytd night i was suffering a headache. i was suppose to slp ( i slept this morning only, told u so tt my bio clocked is screwed) when thought abt my fyp. my brain jus refused to turn off but instead it crushed like a com and virus invaded. i was rolling all around grabbing my head forcing me to slp. i dont like it at all. :(
i miss being 10 years old. oh santa, please dote me this year and bring me to neverland? :(
2:33 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
i hated myself today
:(
school work is making me nuts. deep inside i'm messed up but outside im crazy laughing fine. im gg crazy.
im at the edge of malice
3:04 PM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
been coughing like fcuk the past few days that formed becoming weeks. currently i coughed till my right lung is painful. i can feel the pain each time i cough, i guess ive coughed too hard. it felt kinda numb now. :S and there's once that happened this afternoon that ive coughed till i was grasping for air. it felt like asthma attack but wasnt. sounds scary? kinda not nth much. PHEW.
my cough syrup aint working, perhaps i shld go see the doc but i think i'll be fine soon. dont need to waste time and money bah.
i think im coughing like this today because i ate chicken for dinner. arghssss fuuuuwaccck!
:(
3:41 AM
Monday, December 17, 2007
wohooo... now im talking on the phone with pradap. Grace hanged up an hour ago. now we are watchin youtube tgt and i spot this really funny video. starting part was like both of the guys are acting lah! wth!
i think the most funny part is 1:56 seriously!!! u see all the player are like stunned and the guy is in his own world. damn funny, i laughed like dunno how many times. daps thinks its really funny too. imagine something like this happened in hockey, i think our captain will f the person up. haha
enjoy laughing pple!
3:40 AM
Saturday, December 15, 2007
i jus finished reading Chi's blog. seriously her recent entry made a significane emotional blow to me. especially while reading and listening to the songs she posted. those are the band musical pieces we have played tgt. i cried.
like what she had said, she misses those time. yes, those were the times whereby u know there is a friend there to be with u.
times where i sat on the trolley and get pushed by 2 silliest fren Grace and Chichi. times like Chichi chased after bingxi and end up both being chased by weiwen. times like i tried fixing the hi-fi set till it caught fire times like we all heard the "ghostly" noise tgt and ran out of the band room times like we writing calligraphy using a mop times like comparing whose clarinet is the brightest ( we all lost, cuz Angeline's is winner) times like we all stood tgt and overthrown the stupid "3 layered" teacher times like we boycott that bithcy HAWTYYNG. times like looking bingxi and yk slam dunking and spolied the dance's pple umbrella. many many unforgettable times. times that will make us laugh and tear at the same time.
i didnt have the band orchestral feeling for a very long time. although now im in hockey. sports have their awesome times too. but band is TOTAL different too. we sulk tgt, we high tgt, we move tgt. all for one and one for all.
i rmb as i sat there, i'll try to stay awake and look across to grace and chichi very often to disturb them. going over to percussion side to play drums.
AH. AND I LOVE PLAYING THE ANNOYING "Gallimaufry - Movement 3 " Clarinet solo. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA... DEAFENING SOLO.
kk enough of my crap.
I MISS MY BAND HOMIES! DEEP DOWN MY HEART I REALLY LOVE U GUYS! ALL HAIL TO MUSIC! (sports too XP )
10:15 PM
i say, friday i slept till 1pm and hurried out of my house to lend my camera to Charlene as her cam is not working properly and im meetin her at 1.15pm! luckily i reached there abt 1.40pm. afterwards walk ard tpy alone as im bored. helped to pradap to buy a hoodie whereby i think its nice and value for money. den have lunch w my mama and went home to slp again.
supposely to meet daps and them at 5pm in the end i overslept like shit and woke at at 6+ and Grace is already at little indian alone! oh my ! heard tt she's trippin over dap's attitude. i was actually kinda worried yet scare at the same time. hahaha... have nv see her angry b4. wooah. mus be a blast.
mom sent me there and she suggested if wanna eat dinner all tgt abnd im fine w it. Grace, shark and daps tagged along for dinner nearby with me, my mom and Uncle. weird but however is fun i think. hahah... my mom is actually kinda overwhelmed about why m i hanging out with 2 indians guys. H E L L O? singapore is a multi-racial country, and they aint badass. who cares when we feels awesome hanging out tgt? :) dont play race ah. hahaha...
anywy, after dinner my mom dropped us at mustafa and left. Then , met up Jojo there. went inside and fool, and shopped like some thrifty animals. i love shopping there at times cuz its like u have to savages stuff outta the loads. woohoo... thrill.
afterwhich when we are done with out shoppin, we head to balestier and met up Jon. ate supper and head to his house for some chillout session. chivas , green tea and pepsi are out treats tt night. and oh my. we almost finish the whole bottle but however we went out of mixture. dammit. and oh my again, i can actually hold my liquor pretty well. and OH MY AGAIN! guess wad i saw?
SHOOTING STAR!
woohooo! Actually it was Grace who spot one first den she told us. and i was sooo mad about it cuz in my whole life i have always longed to see one. den i grumble grumble. :( den unexpectedly when im dazzlin starin at one of the building. i saw some white light shoots down.
I WAS STUNNED!
WOOOHOOOOOO!
made a wish after tt. im seriously really happy about it. Shark saw the same one too, but didnt make any wish. this prove tt
BOYS ARE SO BORING.
hahah!
nvm. still very happy i spot one in the midst of hdbs and building. :) and best is Grace and me have seen one in one night.
halfway thru the night Jojo left for home. prolly he's too tired to withstand throughout the night. so left with me, grace, daps, shark and jon. i wasnt high of anything, as compared to clubbing nights i was actually pretty well-behaved. hahaha... i do still hit pple but not as much yo. shark lost it and collasped to deep f.sleep. man... i couldnt slp, so chatted with them. i tried slping but the moment i close my eyes, my mind starts to feel tt ive been spinned. eye-wide open thru the night looking at pple slpin, im jus stoning. baahs. couldnt slp nor slpy anywy. told ya my bio-clock slping system is ruined like fcuk. ocky life!
halfway thru, shark phone rang so i tried to reach it. i end upo being whacked by him! BUGGER. !@#$% around 8 plus, me and daps sent Grace to hail a cab as she have to be home got back the room and i aint slpy at all so i sat there disturb daps. hahahaha after an hr or so, shark finally wake up to his fcukin consciences. so daps went to slp and me and shark chatted watching young and dangerous. Jon came in and out of the rooms a few times as he's helping his mom for the first opening day in the new hawker place. young and dangerous is actually abit boring so i became =.= slpy. slept an hr while shark playing dota. BORING.
woke up , lunch and weeee... took bus home. mom was like nagging at me cuz she tot im having a boyfriend now. wahlau! NO LA! irritating. :( jus dont like the tone she yelled at me. basket. oh wells.. didnt catch any slp cuz im not slpy at all. im seriously becoming a real life owl. clean up my room so i'd shut my mom's trap off for awhile. ahaha... so im back here writin. tt's all folks. :)
7:25 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
consulted pat about FYP this tues. horrible. likely to say my stuff are rejected. some are workable however no wow factor. i wanna WOW pple with my design. i aint no wanna create another "oh another" plain work. tt's not my case
being stressed over this dump i cried about it for alittle while. no worries, i'll stand stronge. i'll jus have to strive harder. no more clubbing for me for now. ive stopped a week. eh... a week nt bad already. hahaa...
helped out in Charlene's fyp photoshoot on Tues morning too hope i did helped her with her stuff much. as well as hoping that some of the photos will be workable. she;ve hire a model that is from England, pretty much a nice girl i must say :)
anywy, been sloggin in the library for inspirations past few days luckily i have mates like wendy, grace, pradap, jojo, shark, mok and a new found friend - tszchong. happy pple yo. oh wells...
grace studyin and daps acting as a pillar- wait he is one. haha
tzechong ( selfclaimed brazillian mix malay chinese looking guy) and chiwawa~
JOJO! finally i met up with him after so long.
constipation again ? eh.. i doubt :X
the hock notourious gays
not d design pple but they are pple who enlightens my miseryday. all the design pple are now very stress like me. :( creative mind have to stay happy to able to have creative happy ideas baahs... crit 2 presentation is coming and im utterly ridden by it. :(
brain please wor, please ? :(
4:21 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
oh anywy, i finally got to get back into some hockey-business last sat. had a friendly match against RI dudes and Greenville boys. slept late ytd hence woke up abit late. Grace overslept too hence i didnt receive any morning call from her at all. Luckily my urge for some hockey made me hop out of bed and called her. She's not feeling well as she's having this bad dirreohoe for past 3 days, i asked her not to come but she insisted. i guess she urging for some balls too. haha. after which called up another lazy sply head - shark. bloodie asshole, no matter how many time i blasted his phone he jus didnt picked up. i even called his house, but to no avail. didnt bother much after calling him dunno how many times. !@#$%^&
played as a right defender in the first half against RI, and my rubberband is jus too friggin lose. my hair is like coming all over my face, and i have to kept adjusting it till Danker scolded me. :( no fun at all. :( :( :( after which comes a break den when we came back. AH. suprised to see tat bastard shark came. he said he was shocked to see his phone having 20 missed call.
dammit, y not 19. my fav number! XD and he told me he finally move his arse outta bed after reading my fearsome sms. haha! im good at making pple fear me eh. nv fail. ahaha. FEAR ME! games started with more pple coming. this time i played right mid-field. and i found a way to tie my hair better hence its not all over my face this time. i really kinda like playing as a mid-fielder as i can enjoy running up and down more and getting more balls. Although is pretty tiring, but it's fun! :D
RI pple are good but i preferred playing with the greenville boys. damn cute. small boys playing with big girls. one small boy damn cute! keep complaining complaining. saying in malay " i shoot here cannot, shoot there cannot, where u wan me to shoot... grumble grumble" den im like "aiy, lac la lac la, relac la bang" den afterwhich i heard karmila laughing at otherside. haha. Overrall the match was really fun. we didnt win but like wad Viven said, jus enjoy the game. i totally agreed to that. they said i did kinda well at that match and i was quite taken back by it. cuz i feel that i didnt play well. I NEEDA BUCK UP! i needa change my hitting method. ( cuz mok told me i hitting wrong) and i needa be quick in dribbling. ( so tt i can dribble pass more pple!)
SCC HERE I COME . . . ! soon. hahaha. after fyp lah. :)
here are some pic i took with my new phone. bored luh.
our 'beautiful astro-turf" : guys are playing against the RI boys
WENDY! check out her expression.
me and chiwawa. she looked damn pale, poor gal. hope she's feeling better
Karmila and Viven! Shingo and Pradap(kana blocked) and Sam's cheeky smile!
me and my wendy loves! ( chiwawa and Harjar behind too)
4:20 AM
i guess my this particular entry wont relate anything or anybody unless u are a designer or design influenced person like me.
Anyways, while i was researching about inspirations for logotypes, i pondered into http://typophile.com/node/14186 and ive read up an interesting entry about this particular guy who wanna do his research for marketing materials to discover what the most common perceptions are with regards to designers/creatives- aesthetics, dress code (or lack there of), body language, interaction, sleep patterns, attitude toward life, politics, clients, the law, etc... narrowed down to the stereotypes that are most commonly percieved by the public at large. Hence, he quoted designers in these such:
Designers Feel: Superior, Egotistic, Passionate, hate when less creative folks get paid more then themselves, etc...
Designers Desire: Sexual partner to position themselves as letterforms during intercourse-like Eastern Indian’s have The Karma Sutra, etc..
Designers Wear: black turtlenecks, have cool glasses, have tattoos of letterforms instead of names of loved ones....
Designer Think: ???
Seriously, i think this guys is kinda looking for trouble by putting this kinda post in a design forum. no doubt that many designers responded to this thread. it's really funny about how the kinda of different designer reacted - either typographers or graphic designers. And after reading them, you actually found out how they've live and etc. i do find some links and relations in some of the designers to me. :)
to think of it, i used to wear black but i dont wear turtle neck ( as i used to be a vry punkish and heavy- metal person but now im vry colourful! still love the same music thou) and have quirky glasses but wear only at home. But ive no choice as i bought the wrong specs. And NO TATTOOS. hahah.. and under the "Designers Desire"- i think is total crap.
try to read up, it's total humour and self-entertaining. eh, i think only designers will appreciates. XD
btw, i love this part that is posted by a guy in typophile nicked : Character
"In general I would say:
Designer love: beautifull things, to be trendsetters, to be innovative, to talk to fellow-creatives about what they do, to make the world a better and more beautifull place and to get paid while doing that.
Designers hate: stereotypes (unless they can use it for their work), not being understood, financial arguments with the client, rainy days and advertising agencies."
That's all designs-elites ! loves for colours and inspiration ! :)
3:59 AM
Monday, December 03, 2007
fcuk. i'm back! i missed out the most important thing that made me wanna log into my blog. i saw this video at some streetwear artist web blog. he's dissing abt artist originals artwork by comparing mainly from Kozyndan's and others insiprations. wad he said is understandble, we cant possibly really created something that nobody came up with unless u invented SOMETHING like bulb. haha. eh.. anywy, its this cool beans advertisment of the new Sony Bravia commercial. check it out.
i really think this is hard work. camera tricks of course, however so they used dummy bunnies and places in the street sections by section and flimed them. hardwork madness manye
beautiful. i love the part where all sum up becoming a big wave , breaking down into ice bergs, and a whale swim and tail came up forming into the bunny. man... beautiful.
6:07 AM
pretty much lost touch of my blog for a very long time. been busy like usual. jus a quickie update. spent many crazy havoc nights every week clubbing. bad. this is bad. im like becoming "one of them" when i said "one of them" is like those lose party gooers. as well been spending lotsa time hang out w my hocks posse till i didnt manage to meet my usual lovers homies back in ma hood. baaahsss... kinda miss them. shawties like Huikee, Miao, Lin, Min, Chi, Jol, Choon and Kew (thou i just hang out w her a few days ago) everybody's life jus got all so busy. (me too lah) work and stress got the best out of us. wait. best? no no. it's bonkers nutts butts.
aite, fyp start and surely i can feel stress every now and then even the moment i'm hitting in. sure the anxiety is getting me up. sometimes i jus dont feel like doin work and i'll chuck the sickie. and not jus one day, many many days till i didnt get any friggin work done. oh my gawd. den panic panic.
THIS IS WRONG.
so, althou i went out chillax i'll be back doin work at night. nevertheless, it screwed up my bio-clock. i swear!
now its 530 am and i aint slpy. past few weeks ive been slpin in the dawn and waking up at sunset. ocky life i had. sad.
anywy, night life got me jaded. and now i'm craving for some hard sticks and balls. OKAY. wait, sound so wrong. i meant hockey. seriously! haha...
i'll jus say a brief of what happen today (sunday 2nd dec) today went to mount faber to eat with Coach Robin, my hock girls team mates and some boys. dinner is dull as food is expensive and i really wanna eat the beef ! ( friggin ex la , 39! ) SIAO AH but fortunately, Grace bought and i chanced to savour on some.
I LOVE BEEF!
my fav meat all time. Afterward we sat cablecar. AWESOME. initially i sat with Grace and Desmond. Desmond sat beside me. awww, how great would it be if it was a lover beside me and da whole trip will be trppin brillant romantic. Desmond is cute la so not so bad. At least not some friggin CMI guy. haha. but too bad, no feeel. :( Grace and I freaked out everynow and then while in the cabin and poor desmond have to withstand us screaming and groping him tightly. not very scare de but grace " AHH AHH AHH" den adrenaline got into me as well. hahaha... fun thou. afterward Syamil came in during e pit stop. the more the merrier. V at one point 4 of us sat at the same side. GUESS WAD ? the cable car tilted! i freaked out la! took some pics but in Desmond phone. heh. :D
overall not bad la. jus lack of a lover like wad Grace said. "if only u my bf at mount faber and everything would be better." WHO DONT WAN? im a lonely soul. maybe ? hahaha... who care about guys. right girls who're reading this?
P.S : i'll post one entry laaateerrrrr on all the pics ive taken thru-out the past outings i went. :) and MORE TO COME.
and hope the misunderstanding will clear and my little one could be free.
WENDYBIRTHDAY COMING! AH! LOVES HER!:)
5:17 AM
Monday, December 24, 2007
went clubbing last sat. wickedly fun. keep group hopping in the club. a moment im with my design girlies, next i hopped to matt's group, next i hope to Alan side, next im with my hock posse. wahaha... was meant to hang with Amelia, Eulisa, Magan and Mark but i kept group hopping till zouk was too crowded for me to spot them. i didnt drank alot but drank fast. 2 e33 in less den 20 mins ( another bottle is at another hr) . plus one bottle is mixed with beer ( taste nice!), i had a few slips of long island and screw driver as well. got pretty darn high. aint wasted yo and nv will be ya. ;)
this time, is not the hock pple ( Jojo, Max Shark) stayed and look after me. Alan did. a guy i met in zouk half a year ago and we are still frens. he really nice, everytime i go zouk chillout and if he was there. he always look after me. ( nv took advantage, hey, im christina leh. box him if he dare) so sweet eh? if hard to find real friends esp ppl u met in clubs. halfway, Alan went to have a great time dancing with girl ( apparently is Max's fren!) den i was there dancing like a mad woman again. vs shuffle with shark. he improved! Jojo too! man... my running man still sucks! but i still win them! WUAHAHAHA... *evil shark took care of me when im giving nut and bull again. thanks you bugger.
anywy, had an awesome time c-walking and shuffling. till got a moment i break away from my fren for a moment. this guys came to me and said. "why are u shuffling to rnb?" " why not ? im c- walking too aint i?" hahahaha... his frene got my number and freaking irritating. GO AWAY. hahaha. anywy im mean enough in the msg till he stopped.
at this moment i jus finished watching Stardust online. nice man. too bad i missed it when its on the big screen. at least i did caught the storyline. damn sweet lah the movie. oh wells.
btw... MERRY JOLLY CHRISTMAS PPLE! didnt manage to do all my x'mas shopping so im still quite frantic in finding buy to do last min shopping. sucks indeed but still man...
i hereby wishes YOU a flaming christmas and a hot santa this year ya. peace! and may u spray shit amount of foam at ya friends, enemy and bagalas. hahahaha!
>.<
5:08 AM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
frantically finding pple to acc me go shopping and club today. arghs, i need my christmas shopping as well as grabbin a present for Am. tml is her birthday celebration. woohoo! i love celebrations! plus with christmas round the corner, is more loves!
anywy all my darlings are workin or either acc their family out. baahs. and im here rotting along typing and complaining to Mr blogger. i rather call blogger a 'HE' is becuz male genders are like nicer to bully at. ahaha no? i dunno? nvm. -.- im bored.
21973*^%!* BORED! i wan to go out shoppin. im meetin Eulisa later at 6 to art fren, acc her to get some stuff. den afterwards hitting zouk! woohoo.. clubbing with de design homies. how's tt sound ?
btw, im so bored tt i could even bother to go check out my ex bf friendster profile. seeing him makes me sicks as well as misses the part of him tt he used to be a part of me. now he got long hair. looks . . . not so nice. i preferred his old short manly hair.
K TT'S NOT THE POINT.
and fyi, ive got over him long ago. im jus like to diss abt him for awhile since im BORED. hahaha... looking at those pics. i cant stand some pics. dont ask me why. it jus . . . IRKS ME. seeing the one u used to love is now like a total stranger is seriously pretty strange. *eye brows . . . oh wells. and here the 'best' part. seeing he still wear the stuff u got for him and gg out with the gf is even more 'WONDERFOOL' and still own his previous gf STUFF AND MONEY. fuck man. most of the stuff he wore like 90% are mine and wad ive chosen! drats... freako mathufarker airhead shitdickie asshoe!! ( sorry ;P)
seeing him so fast get gf ! wad the girl sees in her! ( and wad ive seen in HIM in the past, vomits) den im still available. wait. why m i whining about being single?
I LOVE BEING SINGLE ! so much so tt i kinda love being alone. till ppl tot tt im emoing. nonsense. perhaps i missed being loved. thinking back, woah. ive been single for 10 months so already. so long? it felts so short. maybe i enjoyed single life so much so tt time flies so fast tt felt so short.
anywy, i reckon tt is when all my frens aint available to acc me. i might felt jus a little lonely. alittle i guess? alittle? haha hence, complains about me aint getting any hot guy craze abt me yo. BAKA. why is this sort of crap coming out of me. zzz -.-
c'mon LOVE IS UTTERLY BLIND AND SUICIDAL! eh... to certain extend i guess.
eh ytd night i was suffering a headache. i was suppose to slp ( i slept this morning only, told u so tt my bio clocked is screwed) when thought abt my fyp. my brain jus refused to turn off but instead it crushed like a com and virus invaded. i was rolling all around grabbing my head forcing me to slp. i dont like it at all. :(
i miss being 10 years old. oh santa, please dote me this year and bring me to neverland? :(
2:33 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
i hated myself today
:(
school work is making me nuts. deep inside i'm messed up but outside im crazy laughing fine. im gg crazy.
im at the edge of malice
3:04 PM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
been coughing like fcuk the past few days that formed becoming weeks. currently i coughed till my right lung is painful. i can feel the pain each time i cough, i guess ive coughed too hard. it felt kinda numb now. :S and there's once that happened this afternoon that ive coughed till i was grasping for air. it felt like asthma attack but wasnt. sounds scary? kinda not nth much. PHEW.
my cough syrup aint working, perhaps i shld go see the doc but i think i'll be fine soon. dont need to waste time and money bah.
i think im coughing like this today because i ate chicken for dinner. arghssss fuuuuwaccck!
:(
3:41 AM
Monday, December 17, 2007
wohooo... now im talking on the phone with pradap. Grace hanged up an hour ago. now we are watchin youtube tgt and i spot this really funny video. starting part was like both of the guys are acting lah! wth!
i think the most funny part is 1:56 seriously!!! u see all the player are like stunned and the guy is in his own world. damn funny, i laughed like dunno how many times. daps thinks its really funny too. imagine something like this happened in hockey, i think our captain will f the person up. haha
enjoy laughing pple!
3:40 AM
Saturday, December 15, 2007
i jus finished reading Chi's blog. seriously her recent entry made a significane emotional blow to me. especially while reading and listening to the songs she posted. those are the band musical pieces we have played tgt. i cried.
like what she had said, she misses those time. yes, those were the times whereby u know there is a friend there to be with u.
times where i sat on the trolley and get pushed by 2 silliest fren Grace and Chichi. times like Chichi chased after bingxi and end up both being chased by weiwen. times like i tried fixing the hi-fi set till it caught fire times like we all heard the "ghostly" noise tgt and ran out of the band room times like we writing calligraphy using a mop times like comparing whose clarinet is the brightest ( we all lost, cuz Angeline's is winner) times like we all stood tgt and overthrown the stupid "3 layered" teacher times like we boycott that bithcy HAWTYYNG. times like looking bingxi and yk slam dunking and spolied the dance's pple umbrella. many many unforgettable times. times that will make us laugh and tear at the same time.
i didnt have the band orchestral feeling for a very long time. although now im in hockey. sports have their awesome times too. but band is TOTAL different too. we sulk tgt, we high tgt, we move tgt. all for one and one for all.
i rmb as i sat there, i'll try to stay awake and look across to grace and chichi very often to disturb them. going over to percussion side to play drums.
AH. AND I LOVE PLAYING THE ANNOYING "Gallimaufry - Movement 3 " Clarinet solo. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA... DEAFENING SOLO.
kk enough of my crap.
I MISS MY BAND HOMIES! DEEP DOWN MY HEART I REALLY LOVE U GUYS! ALL HAIL TO MUSIC! (sports too XP )
10:15 PM
i say, friday i slept till 1pm and hurried out of my house to lend my camera to Charlene as her cam is not working properly and im meetin her at 1.15pm! luckily i reached there abt 1.40pm. afterwards walk ard tpy alone as im bored. helped to pradap to buy a hoodie whereby i think its nice and value for money. den have lunch w my mama and went home to slp again.
supposely to meet daps and them at 5pm in the end i overslept like shit and woke at at 6+ and Grace is already at little indian alone! oh my ! heard tt she's trippin over dap's attitude. i was actually kinda worried yet scare at the same time. hahaha... have nv see her angry b4. wooah. mus be a blast.
mom sent me there and she suggested if wanna eat dinner all tgt abnd im fine w it. Grace, shark and daps tagged along for dinner nearby with me, my mom and Uncle. weird but however is fun i think. hahah... my mom is actually kinda overwhelmed about why m i hanging out with 2 indians guys. H E L L O? singapore is a multi-racial country, and they aint badass. who cares when we feels awesome hanging out tgt? :) dont play race ah. hahaha...
anywy, after dinner my mom dropped us at mustafa and left. Then , met up Jojo there. went inside and fool, and shopped like some thrifty animals. i love shopping there at times cuz its like u have to savages stuff outta the loads. woohoo... thrill.
afterwhich when we are done with out shoppin, we head to balestier and met up Jon. ate supper and head to his house for some chillout session. chivas , green tea and pepsi are out treats tt night. and oh my. we almost finish the whole bottle but however we went out of mixture. dammit. and oh my again, i can actually hold my liquor pretty well. and OH MY AGAIN! guess wad i saw?
SHOOTING STAR!
woohooo! Actually it was Grace who spot one first den she told us. and i was sooo mad about it cuz in my whole life i have always longed to see one. den i grumble grumble. :( den unexpectedly when im dazzlin starin at one of the building. i saw some white light shoots down.
I WAS STUNNED!
WOOOHOOOOOO!
made a wish after tt. im seriously really happy about it. Shark saw the same one too, but didnt make any wish. this prove tt
BOYS ARE SO BORING.
hahah!
nvm. still very happy i spot one in the midst of hdbs and building. :) and best is Grace and me have seen one in one night.
halfway thru the night Jojo left for home. prolly he's too tired to withstand throughout the night. so left with me, grace, daps, shark and jon. i wasnt high of anything, as compared to clubbing nights i was actually pretty well-behaved. hahaha... i do still hit pple but not as much yo. shark lost it and collasped to deep f.sleep. man... i couldnt slp, so chatted with them. i tried slping but the moment i close my eyes, my mind starts to feel tt ive been spinned. eye-wide open thru the night looking at pple slpin, im jus stoning. baahs. couldnt slp nor slpy anywy. told ya my bio-clock slping system is ruined like fcuk. ocky life!
halfway thru, shark phone rang so i tried to reach it. i end upo being whacked by him! BUGGER. !@#$% around 8 plus, me and daps sent Grace to hail a cab as she have to be home got back the room and i aint slpy at all so i sat there disturb daps. hahahaha after an hr or so, shark finally wake up to his fcukin consciences. so daps went to slp and me and shark chatted watching young and dangerous. Jon came in and out of the rooms a few times as he's helping his mom for the first opening day in the new hawker place. young and dangerous is actually abit boring so i became =.= slpy. slept an hr while shark playing dota. BORING.
woke up , lunch and weeee... took bus home. mom was like nagging at me cuz she tot im having a boyfriend now. wahlau! NO LA! irritating. :( jus dont like the tone she yelled at me. basket. oh wells.. didnt catch any slp cuz im not slpy at all. im seriously becoming a real life owl. clean up my room so i'd shut my mom's trap off for awhile. ahaha... so im back here writin. tt's all folks. :)
7:25 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
consulted pat about FYP this tues. horrible. likely to say my stuff are rejected. some are workable however no wow factor. i wanna WOW pple with my design. i aint no wanna create another "oh another" plain work. tt's not my case
being stressed over this dump i cried about it for alittle while. no worries, i'll stand stronge. i'll jus have to strive harder. no more clubbing for me for now. ive stopped a week. eh... a week nt bad already. hahaa...
helped out in Charlene's fyp photoshoot on Tues morning too hope i did helped her with her stuff much. as well as hoping that some of the photos will be workable. she;ve hire a model that is from England, pretty much a nice girl i must say :)
anywy, been sloggin in the library for inspirations past few days luckily i have mates like wendy, grace, pradap, jojo, shark, mok and a new found friend - tszchong. happy pple yo. oh wells...
grace studyin and daps acting as a pillar- wait he is one. haha
tzechong ( selfclaimed brazillian mix malay chinese looking guy) and chiwawa~
JOJO! finally i met up with him after so long.
constipation again ? eh.. i doubt :X
the hock notourious gays
not d design pple but they are pple who enlightens my miseryday. all the design pple are now very stress like me. :( creative mind have to stay happy to able to have creative happy ideas baahs... crit 2 presentation is coming and im utterly ridden by it. :(
brain please wor, please ? :(
4:21 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
oh anywy, i finally got to get back into some hockey-business last sat. had a friendly match against RI dudes and Greenville boys. slept late ytd hence woke up abit late. Grace overslept too hence i didnt receive any morning call from her at all. Luckily my urge for some hockey made me hop out of bed and called her. She's not feeling well as she's having this bad dirreohoe for past 3 days, i asked her not to come but she insisted. i guess she urging for some balls too. haha. after which called up another lazy sply head - shark. bloodie asshole, no matter how many time i blasted his phone he jus didnt picked up. i even called his house, but to no avail. didnt bother much after calling him dunno how many times. !@#$%^&
played as a right defender in the first half against RI, and my rubberband is jus too friggin lose. my hair is like coming all over my face, and i have to kept adjusting it till Danker scolded me. :( no fun at all. :( :( :( after which comes a break den when we came back. AH. suprised to see tat bastard shark came. he said he was shocked to see his phone having 20 missed call.
dammit, y not 19. my fav number! XD and he told me he finally move his arse outta bed after reading my fearsome sms. haha! im good at making pple fear me eh. nv fail. ahaha. FEAR ME! games started with more pple coming. this time i played right mid-field. and i found a way to tie my hair better hence its not all over my face this time. i really kinda like playing as a mid-fielder as i can enjoy running up and down more and getting more balls. Although is pretty tiring, but it's fun! :D
RI pple are good but i preferred playing with the greenville boys. damn cute. small boys playing with big girls. one small boy damn cute! keep complaining complaining. saying in malay " i shoot here cannot, shoot there cannot, where u wan me to shoot... grumble grumble" den im like "aiy, lac la lac la, relac la bang" den afterwhich i heard karmila laughing at otherside. haha. Overrall the match was really fun. we didnt win but like wad Viven said, jus enjoy the game. i totally agreed to that. they said i did kinda well at that match and i was quite taken back by it. cuz i feel that i didnt play well. I NEEDA BUCK UP! i needa change my hitting method. ( cuz mok told me i hitting wrong) and i needa be quick in dribbling. ( so tt i can dribble pass more pple!)
SCC HERE I COME . . . ! soon. hahaha. after fyp lah. :)
here are some pic i took with my new phone. bored luh.
our 'beautiful astro-turf" : guys are playing against the RI boys
WENDY! check out her expression.
me and chiwawa. she looked damn pale, poor gal. hope she's feeling better
Karmila and Viven! Shingo and Pradap(kana blocked) and Sam's cheeky smile!
me and my wendy loves! ( chiwawa and Harjar behind too)
4:20 AM
i guess my this particular entry wont relate anything or anybody unless u are a designer or design influenced person like me.
Anyways, while i was researching about inspirations for logotypes, i pondered into http://typophile.com/node/14186 and ive read up an interesting entry about this particular guy who wanna do his research for marketing materials to discover what the most common perceptions are with regards to designers/creatives- aesthetics, dress code (or lack there of), body language, interaction, sleep patterns, attitude toward life, politics, clients, the law, etc... narrowed down to the stereotypes that are most commonly percieved by the public at large. Hence, he quoted designers in these such:
Designers Feel: Superior, Egotistic, Passionate, hate when less creative folks get paid more then themselves, etc...
Designers Desire: Sexual partner to position themselves as letterforms during intercourse-like Eastern Indian’s have The Karma Sutra, etc..
Designers Wear: black turtlenecks, have cool glasses, have tattoos of letterforms instead of names of loved ones....
Designer Think: ???
Seriously, i think this guys is kinda looking for trouble by putting this kinda post in a design forum. no doubt that many designers responded to this thread. it's really funny about how the kinda of different designer reacted - either typographers or graphic designers. And after reading them, you actually found out how they've live and etc. i do find some links and relations in some of the designers to me. :)
to think of it, i used to wear black but i dont wear turtle neck ( as i used to be a vry punkish and heavy- metal person but now im vry colourful! still love the same music thou) and have quirky glasses but wear only at home. But ive no choice as i bought the wrong specs. And NO TATTOOS. hahah.. and under the "Designers Desire"- i think is total crap.
try to read up, it's total humour and self-entertaining. eh, i think only designers will appreciates. XD
btw, i love this part that is posted by a guy in typophile nicked : Character
"In general I would say:
Designer love: beautifull things, to be trendsetters, to be innovative, to talk to fellow-creatives about what they do, to make the world a better and more beautifull place and to get paid while doing that.
Designers hate: stereotypes (unless they can use it for their work), not being understood, financial arguments with the client, rainy days and advertising agencies."
That's all designs-elites ! loves for colours and inspiration ! :)
3:59 AM
Monday, December 03, 2007
fcuk. i'm back! i missed out the most important thing that made me wanna log into my blog. i saw this video at some streetwear artist web blog. he's dissing abt artist originals artwork by comparing mainly from Kozyndan's and others insiprations. wad he said is understandble, we cant possibly really created something that nobody came up with unless u invented SOMETHING like bulb. haha. eh.. anywy, its this cool beans advertisment of the new Sony Bravia commercial. check it out.
i really think this is hard work. camera tricks of course, however so they used dummy bunnies and places in the street sections by section and flimed them. hardwork madness manye
beautiful. i love the part where all sum up becoming a big wave , breaking down into ice bergs, and a whale swim and tail came up forming into the bunny. man... beautiful.
6:07 AM
pretty much lost touch of my blog for a very long time. been busy like usual. jus a quickie update. spent many crazy havoc nights every week clubbing. bad. this is bad. im like becoming "one of them" when i said "one of them" is like those lose party gooers. as well been spending lotsa time hang out w my hocks posse till i didnt manage to meet my usual lovers homies back in ma hood. baaahsss... kinda miss them. shawties like Huikee, Miao, Lin, Min, Chi, Jol, Choon and Kew (thou i just hang out w her a few days ago) everybody's life jus got all so busy. (me too lah) work and stress got the best out of us. wait. best? no no. it's bonkers nutts butts.
aite, fyp start and surely i can feel stress every now and then even the moment i'm hitting in. sure the anxiety is getting me up. sometimes i jus dont feel like doin work and i'll chuck the sickie. and not jus one day, many many days till i didnt get any friggin work done. oh my gawd. den panic panic.
THIS IS WRONG.
so, althou i went out chillax i'll be back doin work at night. nevertheless, it screwed up my bio-clock. i swear!
now its 530 am and i aint slpy. past few weeks ive been slpin in the dawn and waking up at sunset. ocky life i had. sad.
anywy, night life got me jaded. and now i'm craving for some hard sticks and balls. OKAY. wait, sound so wrong. i meant hockey. seriously! haha...
i'll jus say a brief of what happen today (sunday 2nd dec) today went to mount faber to eat with Coach Robin, my hock girls team mates and some boys. dinner is dull as food is expensive and i really wanna eat the beef ! ( friggin ex la , 39! ) SIAO AH but fortunately, Grace bought and i chanced to savour on some.
I LOVE BEEF!
my fav meat all time. Afterward we sat cablecar. AWESOME. initially i sat with Grace and Desmond. Desmond sat beside me. awww, how great would it be if it was a lover beside me and da whole trip will be trppin brillant romantic. Desmond is cute la so not so bad. At least not some friggin CMI guy. haha. but too bad, no feeel. :( Grace and I freaked out everynow and then while in the cabin and poor desmond have to withstand us screaming and groping him tightly. not very scare de but grace " AHH AHH AHH" den adrenaline got into me as well. hahaha... fun thou. afterward Syamil came in during e pit stop. the more the merrier. V at one point 4 of us sat at the same side. GUESS WAD ? the cable car tilted! i freaked out la! took some pics but in Desmond phone. heh. :D
overall not bad la. jus lack of a lover like wad Grace said. "if only u my bf at mount faber and everything would be better." WHO DONT WAN? im a lonely soul. maybe ? hahaha... who care about guys. right girls who're reading this?
P.S : i'll post one entry laaateerrrrr on all the pics ive taken thru-out the past outings i went. :) and MORE TO COME.
and hope the misunderstanding will clear and my little one could be free.
WENDYBIRTHDAY COMING! AH! LOVES HER!:)
5:17 AM
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grace studyin and daps acting as a pillar- wait he is one. haha
tzechong ( selfclaimed brazillian mix malay chinese looking guy) and chiwawa~
JOJO! finally i met up with him after so long.
constipation again ? eh.. i doubt :X
the hock notourious gays
our 'beautiful astro-turf" : guys are playing against the RI boys
WENDY! check out her expression.
me and chiwawa. she looked damn pale, poor gal. hope she's feeling better
Karmila and Viven! Shingo and Pradap(kana blocked) and Sam's cheeky smile!
me and my wendy loves! ( chiwawa and Harjar behind too)