It’s been kinda rough for me about hearing the names of the team.When Coach Robin was telling us the team list, my heart pounded and when he finished it, my heart stopped.
I didn’t get to hear my name.I aint in the school team this year. i’m really sad yet felt unfair. I blanked for a moment. I’m really struck by the news that I don’t get to play with my team in this year IVP.Even now I’m writing this, I can feel likewise what I’ve felt on that day totally.And meanwhile I’m listening to sum 41 and blink 182 teenage emo songs making me feeling even worst now. Yes. I really am. LI tried to control my feelings after that. I kept quiet. Acted like nothing happen. However so, I sucked at hiding feelings so I know I need some time of my own.I went off to be alone for awhile, so I went to get a drink.when imma gonna walk over to the vending machine, Sim and Grace were concerned and ask me am I alrightI replied“yea, I am” but actually in fact, “NO I AM NOT.” My heart screamed. do not ever ask me am I alright when I am in fact not cause it WILL trigger me and I’ll crush. well, and it did.When I walked to the vending machine, I sob quietly.I felt dumb crying over sports, and it is my first time. I don’t wanna let the other knows so I sat alone to keep my cool.I feel so sucked up. Im like the senior in hockey and I couldn’t even get into the team and the juniors are in instead.I feel so angry at myself. Do I really suck so much?I know I didn’t really work hard however so, I did try didn’t i?I so pissed off, ARGHS! I am getting all so emotional now and crying again while typing.as I sat there drinking, I drank that can as if its beer.I need a cool off.After awhile, Grace and Sim came running over to concern about me, then came along Jojo … then, Tinghao, Pradap and Shark. Jojo and Grace didn’t make into the team as well but they are year 1, they have next 2 years to get in. In my case, im graduating soon. No more chances for me.
Why couldn’t I get the best of this year for hockey?sigh.
Anyway, they console me and made me kept my mind off it.Well, these friends really made me feel slightly better.
I saw Tinghao hiding being the pillar and looking at me.so I threw my slipper at him twice. Then I realize to needa vent so
I hit pradap with my slipper and hit Shark with my hand. I did and I felt way much better and I start to smile again.

Love u guys.

After that the girls went to bath, I cried in the shower for awhile to let my heart out. Grace is still all so chirpy and not being affect by it. Sucha strong girl. She and Sim kept cheering me on. So swheet of u guys.

Then when out and walking out of the school.Elsie was like asking me if I am alright. DO NOT ASK ME AM I ALRIGHT.So yea, it trigger again.Jojo was right beside me and I was sobbing.I just cant control luh. Im a cry baby when im really sad and disappointed.he keep asking me to wipe my tears but I don’t wanna cuz pple will know im crying.so I used abit of my shirt and he offer his sleeves as well.being a shortass, my head just nice to his sleeves, and to I wipe it off, I just easily lean my head again his arm while walking and tada! Most tears gone. thanks jojo.

When it lunch time, I had a great time.It’s quite alright as ive kept my mind off.Some of the people ate at mac, Oh… and he talked to me today.Eh, he suddenly oh so friendly huh.I’m recruiting people to go to club tonight so I asked mok and ignored him like usual but still he first talked to me. Being friendly Christina, I of course replied him and even asked him if he wanna come. “ no I don’t wanna club anymore now” he replied, blaahssss crap.he’s jus tryin to make a statement to me. Didn’t u went to MOS today. Shit u.Anyway the usual gang of mine hanged out outside the mac for awhile.There were Jon, Desmond, Sham, Jeremiah, PiaKia, Jojo, Grace, Sim and me!Played with Jon’s phone for awhile and took bloodie random pics, disturb pia kia and he accidentally HIT my chin with my stick! YOU! and pia kia is so cute. He tried consoling me and even pitched my face.Hahaha…well, then we ate at the coffee shop mocking at Jere about Viven.

Oh wells, I felt so much better after lunch.Then I off to do photo shoot project in school.NO LIFE u think?

WRONG. Ahahaha..Cause after that, I rush home to have dinner, get changed and WOOT!head down to zouk to party.I wanna party so badly cuz I was so busy over the weeks and I just had a really bad day.Bumped into a lot of people in zouk like usual,there were Kenny, Matthew, Step, QiHao, Xy, Mark Lim, Ming and even our captain JAMIE! (Surprisingly to see her in club man!)

There were me, Grace, Jojo and Shark.even thou not a lot of pple however we did enjoyed our time.we ordered drinks and even mixed them.Around 3 plus, I decided to play something interesting.So I suggested splitting up. Girls and girls, guys and guys.while walking my hat was kidnapped by an unknown guy. he jus took it and wore it.im like huh? Den I jus took it back, den when I’m about to walk away he took it away again! Den I give him “ uhh, no u not gonna do that again naughty boy” look and stare and took back again. He’s kinda hot as well. I think he’s a celeb DJ. (As that day there’s a lot of Bboys, Bgirls, DJs, Caucasians and Denise Kaler!

In the dance floor, jus moments we are separated. A spooky guy came over to us and made a freaky pervertic wink to Gracethen we were like “what the fuck” then he asked us if we don’t mind dancing with him. OH MAN. LOOK AT THE MIRROR DORK.NO. hahaha… I didn’t said that of course. I told him “ NO, WE aint COOL dancing with YOU”den he was like why aint cool.cuz we don’t wanna? Dumbass.den when he knows that we don’t wanna, he was trying to hook us up with conversation. And told me “u look like a cool cowgirl with ya hat”so? I said “ no” and ignore him. Stupid ass trying to get fresh with us huh?fuck off la. Grace is mine and I am hers. hahaha…after awhile second thing happened soon after.I did foot work while wearing high heels. can u believe it ? u have to.cuz I really did.There were people looking and suddenly made space for me and cheered la.no way im gonna be in the limelight. I run away after that. Ahahaha…so score between girls and guys.2 – 0 weeeehoooo.. we won.XD

After clubbing. I saw ben’s current girlfren now.grrrr.. slim and pretty. SO UNFAIR! Wadeva!!!!!!hope she’s jus another plain boring stupid girl inside her.NO X FACTOR AT ALL *evil!
we wanna have breakfast! so we crossed over but didn’t want to have prata.While standing there procrastinating.

Another freaky guy walked over and touched Jojo arm and said “oh… nice hairrr” in a sissy tune and giving a gay eye contact look.OH MY GAWD! So I shouted “WEIRDO” back to him.hahaha… Jojo is so surprised after that. He is like (0.0) he’s a gay magnet. XD.Saw Kenny, talked to him and said bye.heh. He a guy I know in zouk last time. A friend that’s worthwhile.

We walked over to Great World City but the mac is close so we wanna walked to town.So I suggested that to sit inside the shopping cart and get pushed.so we got one, I sat inside and Jojo sat on the reeling of the cage and Shark and Grace pushing us. you will never anticipate what happened next. We happily pushing and get pushed. Halfway out of great world city, by the roadside.IT STARTED TO POUR!AHHHH… den hurry we got out and ran across the road to the bus stop.And I was freezing! The rain is splashing all over me!but they were so nice. They formed a wall for me and kept warm.

friendship loveees!I felt so loveeee!
and while waiting for the rain to stop - we took silly pic. see!
we are all drenched !

i'm cold in this pic fyi. heh! :)





eh…. Lazy to type… haahah tt’s all!I still kinda sad not being able to play in the team of the last year!SIGH!

It’s been kinda rough for me about hearing the names of the team.When Coach Robin was telling us the team list, my heart pounded and when he finished it, my heart stopped.
I didn’t get to hear my name.I aint in the school team this year. i’m really sad yet felt unfair. I blanked for a moment. I’m really struck by the news that I don’t get to play with my team in this year IVP.Even now I’m writing this, I can feel likewise what I’ve felt on that day totally.And meanwhile I’m listening to sum 41 and blink 182 teenage emo songs making me feeling even worst now. Yes. I really am. LI tried to control my feelings after that. I kept quiet. Acted like nothing happen. However so, I sucked at hiding feelings so I know I need some time of my own.I went off to be alone for awhile, so I went to get a drink.when imma gonna walk over to the vending machine, Sim and Grace were concerned and ask me am I alrightI replied“yea, I am” but actually in fact, “NO I AM NOT.” My heart screamed. do not ever ask me am I alright when I am in fact not cause it WILL trigger me and I’ll crush. well, and it did.When I walked to the vending machine, I sob quietly.I felt dumb crying over sports, and it is my first time. I don’t wanna let the other knows so I sat alone to keep my cool.I feel so sucked up. Im like the senior in hockey and I couldn’t even get into the team and the juniors are in instead.I feel so angry at myself. Do I really suck so much?I know I didn’t really work hard however so, I did try didn’t i?I so pissed off, ARGHS! I am getting all so emotional now and crying again while typing.as I sat there drinking, I drank that can as if its beer.I need a cool off.After awhile, Grace and Sim came running over to concern about me, then came along Jojo … then, Tinghao, Pradap and Shark. Jojo and Grace didn’t make into the team as well but they are year 1, they have next 2 years to get in. In my case, im graduating soon. No more chances for me.
Why couldn’t I get the best of this year for hockey?sigh.
Anyway, they console me and made me kept my mind off it.Well, these friends really made me feel slightly better.
I saw Tinghao hiding being the pillar and looking at me.so I threw my slipper at him twice. Then I realize to needa vent so
I hit pradap with my slipper and hit Shark with my hand. I did and I felt way much better and I start to smile again.

Love u guys.

After that the girls went to bath, I cried in the shower for awhile to let my heart out. Grace is still all so chirpy and not being affect by it. Sucha strong girl. She and Sim kept cheering me on. So swheet of u guys.

Then when out and walking out of the school.Elsie was like asking me if I am alright. DO NOT ASK ME AM I ALRIGHT.So yea, it trigger again.Jojo was right beside me and I was sobbing.I just cant control luh. Im a cry baby when im really sad and disappointed.he keep asking me to wipe my tears but I don’t wanna cuz pple will know im crying.so I used abit of my shirt and he offer his sleeves as well.being a shortass, my head just nice to his sleeves, and to I wipe it off, I just easily lean my head again his arm while walking and tada! Most tears gone. thanks jojo.

When it lunch time, I had a great time.It’s quite alright as ive kept my mind off.Some of the people ate at mac, Oh… and he talked to me today.Eh, he suddenly oh so friendly huh.I’m recruiting people to go to club tonight so I asked mok and ignored him like usual but still he first talked to me. Being friendly Christina, I of course replied him and even asked him if he wanna come. “ no I don’t wanna club anymore now” he replied, blaahssss crap.he’s jus tryin to make a statement to me. Didn’t u went to MOS today. Shit u.Anyway the usual gang of mine hanged out outside the mac for awhile.There were Jon, Desmond, Sham, Jeremiah, PiaKia, Jojo, Grace, Sim and me!Played with Jon’s phone for awhile and took bloodie random pics, disturb pia kia and he accidentally HIT my chin with my stick! YOU! and pia kia is so cute. He tried consoling me and even pitched my face.Hahaha…well, then we ate at the coffee shop mocking at Jere about Viven.

Oh wells, I felt so much better after lunch.Then I off to do photo shoot project in school.NO LIFE u think?

WRONG. Ahahaha..Cause after that, I rush home to have dinner, get changed and WOOT!head down to zouk to party.I wanna party so badly cuz I was so busy over the weeks and I just had a really bad day.Bumped into a lot of people in zouk like usual,there were Kenny, Matthew, Step, QiHao, Xy, Mark Lim, Ming and even our captain JAMIE! (Surprisingly to see her in club man!)

There were me, Grace, Jojo and Shark.even thou not a lot of pple however we did enjoyed our time.we ordered drinks and even mixed them.Around 3 plus, I decided to play something interesting.So I suggested splitting up. Girls and girls, guys and guys.while walking my hat was kidnapped by an unknown guy. he jus took it and wore it.im like huh? Den I jus took it back, den when I’m about to walk away he took it away again! Den I give him “ uhh, no u not gonna do that again naughty boy” look and stare and took back again. He’s kinda hot as well. I think he’s a celeb DJ. (As that day there’s a lot of Bboys, Bgirls, DJs, Caucasians and Denise Kaler!

In the dance floor, jus moments we are separated. A spooky guy came over to us and made a freaky pervertic wink to Gracethen we were like “what the fuck” then he asked us if we don’t mind dancing with him. OH MAN. LOOK AT THE MIRROR DORK.NO. hahaha… I didn’t said that of course. I told him “ NO, WE aint COOL dancing with YOU”den he was like why aint cool.cuz we don’t wanna? Dumbass.den when he knows that we don’t wanna, he was trying to hook us up with conversation. And told me “u look like a cool cowgirl with ya hat”so? I said “ no” and ignore him. Stupid ass trying to get fresh with us huh?fuck off la. Grace is mine and I am hers. hahaha…after awhile second thing happened soon after.I did foot work while wearing high heels. can u believe it ? u have to.cuz I really did.There were people looking and suddenly made space for me and cheered la.no way im gonna be in the limelight. I run away after that. Ahahaha…so score between girls and guys.2 – 0 weeeehoooo.. we won.XD

After clubbing. I saw ben’s current girlfren now.grrrr.. slim and pretty. SO UNFAIR! Wadeva!!!!!!hope she’s jus another plain boring stupid girl inside her.NO X FACTOR AT ALL *evil!
we wanna have breakfast! so we crossed over but didn’t want to have prata.While standing there procrastinating.

Another freaky guy walked over and touched Jojo arm and said “oh… nice hairrr” in a sissy tune and giving a gay eye contact look.OH MY GAWD! So I shouted “WEIRDO” back to him.hahaha… Jojo is so surprised after that. He is like (0.0) he’s a gay magnet. XD.Saw Kenny, talked to him and said bye.heh. He a guy I know in zouk last time. A friend that’s worthwhile.

We walked over to Great World City but the mac is close so we wanna walked to town.So I suggested that to sit inside the shopping cart and get pushed.so we got one, I sat inside and Jojo sat on the reeling of the cage and Shark and Grace pushing us. you will never anticipate what happened next. We happily pushing and get pushed. Halfway out of great world city, by the roadside.IT STARTED TO POUR!AHHHH… den hurry we got out and ran across the road to the bus stop.And I was freezing! The rain is splashing all over me!but they were so nice. They formed a wall for me and kept warm.

friendship loveees!I felt so loveeee!
and while waiting for the rain to stop - we took silly pic. see!
we are all drenched !

i'm cold in this pic fyi. heh! :)





eh…. Lazy to type… haahah tt’s all!I still kinda sad not being able to play in the team of the last year!SIGH!