C h r i s t i n a.
Age 21ish. Student. Full time sleeping beauty. Part time graphic designer, gamer and ass kicker literally... LOL.
Always plugged into rock, indie electro, dubstep and pop sometimes. Dating a fat lazy bum bum name Jacob Lim.
Lives on black and soya bean. Learning how to walk on killer heels and you.
Friday, January 26, 2007
oh man. i wanna get to school in this man.
12:29 AM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
ive heard some unpleasant comments about my skills in hockey.
kinda pissed of that person as she couldnt understand & had always gives nasty comments.
i agree i suck... for now but doesnt mean u have the rights to comment, "cant stand me" and whatever i do was poor.
i wonder how would u feel if u were me.
People like her have to learn what is empathy and feels it.
someone, please get her into it.
if not, other pple might get hurt in the heart like me.
at the same time, i also feel disppointed and depressed for myself.
ive tried, like what i have always been doin the past trainings.
I just dunno what i should asked more from myself.
i just want to play hockey and i love it.
dun stop me in tt.
i dun wan someone thats bad and nasty, making me feel lousy and eventually get out of hockey.
NO. i dun wan it to be that case. i m not gonna be tt sort.
i wanna do better.
been bottling my feelings for a long time.
just dunno who to share with, one of my bestfriend is busy with girlfriend, another has much problems for herself. I dun share with Benjamin because i dun feel like it. Other closed girlfriends i have, its been a long time since i shared stuff with them because of poly life, design is a busy place to be in.
Its weird of i feel weird if i just blurt out of a sudden to them.
its beens a few years since i have really opened my heart and share my downess part of my life to anyone. i rmb the last person i ever opened my heart and cried was with Sam on the phone. we bearly know each other for 2 years plus, but i regard him a friend tt i could share my thoughts with as we both just clicked well since the first day i met him in sch. thinking back den, he's an emo freak, so m i. it's funny in a way.
maybe emo+emo=medicine.
anywy, now its blogger and those pple who are unfortunate to read my sad entry of my life. now, you know the sad and emo part of Christina.
BIG DISCOVERY.
That's not my point.
i think i am facing some identity crisis once AGAIN.
and yes. I HATE IT and now, its always in hockey.
i mean, the one i always hang out with in sch will "changed" during training.
and im left alone.
they would clutter together as a group.
chat happily and laughed happily.
hanging out or have lunch. sometimes can even ask other pple to join them infront of me without asking me.
maybe some pple in the group doesnt like me.
that's too bad cuz i can be a great friend to have fun with, i just need to be opened to someone i trust.
and i have nothing to talk about to them and they always didnt look or seems interested to even strike a conversation with me.
ive been ignoring the situation for a long time, thats something ive learned in life. Therefore u will see me L E S S talkative in hockey, so anybody wanna know the quiet side of Christina? come join hockey. And u'll see me emoing one corner. (not so exergerating la) however still i'm bothered by it, who wouldnt ?
all these circumstance have made me feels belittle.
it is terrible to anyone who have experienced.
i believed everyone would ahve been through once or every part of their life.
i dun wanna be thick-skinned person, be a fly, stick to them jus for the sake of hanging out. i wanna have people which what we call "friends"
i dun understand why they could really bear to leave some pple at the back of the grp. I have heard alot of gossip politics gossips politics gossip politics over and over again in hockey. sometimes i wonder, why even bother? this is the part i dun understand about the some humans in life. Maybe i m sensitive. baaahs. If someone was quiet all of a sudden and sitting by a corner, i would be concern and bother to ask her why or to acc her. i dun like pple to be left alone at the edge of the world and letting them think their life aint worth a person attention.
i jus wanna let it out here.
no offensive remark meant here.
i suddenly missed secondary school days.
where my silly nutty sistas would be attentive and concern enough to know something wrong about me when i m quiet.
loves u guys although i dun have time to hang out with u guys.
2:42 AM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
neck's cracking, shoulders aching, eyes soring.
what else are the students of temasek design having?
ever since school started.
life is just so busy. (tt's e reason y i didn update blog!)
the burning of midnight oil, latenights coffee and the ticking sound of the mouse breaking the slience of our room.
one word to sum it all - w a s t e d
wait ... mayb a sentence,
we are so wasted.
all the work jus kept coming. . .
portfolio, prepress, alt process and Darkroom techqnies and my freelance work.
how bad can this be man?
it's like a nightmare...
AHHH..
been up till late, and up so early morning.
ass. sucha life is definately not enjoyable.
however, i still managed to enjoyed school much these days.
mayb because im having a really fun module called Alt process and Darkroom Technic.
been learning howta silk screen, create my own pin-hole camera outta a can and more to come!!!
is damn cool beans. damn. really. and i mean it!!!!
for pple who dun understand wad i m talking abt.
Pin-hole cam is like using a can and it's a camera, aint it fantastic?
it's a camera without using any film! haha.
and u have to process the photopaper inside it in the darkroom. As for Silk Screening is like u could printing whatever u wan on shirts or any canvas.
imma gonna do one for Bun and myself using my own design.
wooha. a couple shirt of our own, and u can spot nothing like it on the streets or anywhere else.
because...
its designed by ME!!!
hahaha, im planning to sell a couple of them on our up-coming blogshop with the chics if im able to come out with others.
Before the school started, enjoyed life lots.
chilling out alot with my old band cliques during the band's chalet gathering and the sec school's cca oreintation help out.
didnt really help out much cuz got kinda pissed of by some nutty shit stranger transpassing our GROUND and ordering us around.
like WE BOTHERS. come on.
this is where we played and practiced for the past years.
u are a total stranger. if i were mean.
i'll just fucked u up, like what ShaoXuan wanna do, snapped it outta ya face.
wooha, how's about tt stranger?
but luckily, i was Miss nice gal tt day.
count yaself lucky.
baaahs. surprisingly, i still can play the clarinet after 3 years!
ive stopped playing it since ive graduted from sec school.
still, i couldnt resist of not playing it.
Initially, i was a little rusty, after a few trying out, i got hold of it soon.
i guess the 4 years of training didn waste.
AH FEEL SO GREAT !
wooha.
stepping into the band room makes me feels younger.
it has let me reminisces the memories the still lingers there.
i recalled something ironic.
when i was still in sec and in band.
i dread coming to band practice cuz i THINK its boring.
but today, it was a whole different feeling.
i wanna come. i wanna play!
"somebody stop meeee" - (if u know where this verse is from. HAAH)damn. ive shld cherish those days. likewise to the people ard u.
something i missed the most was the people there.
we would jus fool around like so monkey business.
damn.
i missed those days with Chichi, Grace, Joyce, Bing, SX, Yuan and YongKiang.
:(
the days are over and great. so if to relived again and again, it wouldnt be so awesome anymore. cuz these are the days tt have happened for us to keep in our heart and our mind.
damn. but still, the "siaoness" never left us.
we still 'siao' around.
i love u guys and of course, Fiona, Patrina, Sili, Shuqun and others. :)
8:56 PM
