C h r i s t i n a.
Age 21ish. Student. Full time sleeping beauty. Part time graphic designer, gamer and ass kicker literally... LOL.
Always plugged into rock, indie electro, dubstep and pop sometimes. Dating a fat lazy bum bum name Jacob Lim.
Lives on black and soya bean. Learning how to walk on killer heels and you.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i kinda pissed after reading somebody's blog where claiming tt i was childish becuz of some msg i sent.
it jus a few words of anger at tt instant.
she just dont understand.
She do not FEEL how i simply felt so she could call me wadeva she thinks.
but what reali triggered me sending tt kinda msg in the 1st place?
i was being L E F T O U T.
i have always felt left out in that group, it's has been bottling up in me for yrs. secrets and outings i was always the last one being told, or worst. never been told.
where everybody happily chill out and i was at the edge of the earth rotting.
which 2 words can described me in those years?
but i would always tell myself, everything will be or soon be over.
it will be fine.
tt is how i tolerated for the years.
Unfortuantely, the fine days did not or never will come.
And the volcano in me just flared tt day.
a short fuse i have indeed.
People who knows me understands.
She shld have know me.
and i know her.
she does not tolerate. or would nt even try to tolerate.
ooh well, she will never knows or understand the feeling of being left out becuz she always been so welcomed.
Life for her is easy. Having the looks and the great sociablity.
and what do i have?
For me is just a farking piece of ass life.
yea.. you guys did explained but i'm still at the top of my anger.
and i didn get any sincere "SORRY" from anyone.
and i mean SINCERE.
over the phone, over the msg i heard or seen on tt day was far far from sincere.
it was more to the "quickly get over this Christina shit."
tt's wad and how i felt
Can't you guys call me up the next day.
and say simply some comforting words "are u alright?"
i have always be hard at the outside, soft in the inside.
the simplest words will always melts me and i'll just let bygones be bygones.
but they just wouldn't bother.
so what can i do??
she claims tt i wanted to break THEIR darlingship.
so tt mean i was not in their darlingship anymore huh?
tt's quite saddening tt is she think i am trying to break u guys up.
i simply tell her that in the msg is to vent my own temper.
she wouldnt get easily influeced by it wouldnt she?
so where is tt part tt i'm trying to break u guys apart.
she even believes that i always think i am always right.
You think for yaself, how many times u did apologised when u reali did something wrong.
To be frank, there aint one to me.
i know myself. When i did something wrong. i apologised and i did in some occasion.
so whose the one claiming herself " think you are always right"
huhh ? ?
i know u are stubborn.
i can be too.
she even wrote tt "THEY" will not make peace to me anymore.
who are u to conclude that the whole darlings tt i have will nt befriend me anymore?
who are u? tell me? WHO ARE YOU?
God? Jesus? Virgin mary?
no... you are none of that.
not even a chance.
So who are u to stood out and take a stand for them.
You wont gif a damn abt me?
that is like usual.
that is what u always do,
cause you will think nothing is wrong with ya side of the story.
and please, this aint no quarrelling.
i'll just state this in case u blust up me with this kinda blog shit again.
;mad and misunderstood- shit happens and it did.
4:02 AM
