C h r i s t i n a.
Age 21ish. Student. Full time sleeping beauty. Part time graphic designer, gamer and ass kicker literally... LOL.
Always plugged into rock, indie electro, dubstep and pop sometimes. Dating a fat lazy bum bum name Jacob Lim.
Lives on black and soya bean. Learning how to walk on killer heels and you.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
i got stabbed my Miao...
so no choice, althought i m kinda lazy to blog.
i am lazy to blog simply becuz i m lazy to think of wad to write.
hahahahaha...
yes, i am tt lazy.
at times lah!
but since this dunno bull thingy has written everything.
so i jus needa copy and paste.
yep yep, here goes. . . .
The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test (:
I miss somebody right now.
I don't want TeeVee these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed alot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone else bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I like sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of moodswings.
I have a hidden talent. ? ? ? ?
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have alot of friends. (no one will think they would have enuf frens aint it)
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in trackpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. (OMG OMG, i dun wanna live lonely and die)
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything
I have alot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the €¦Ã¢â‚¬Å“South ParkÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€ł movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I don't pick my food.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson (used to, he still rocks in his song, only.) , scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with girls.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone Ive ever met.
I am comfortable with who i am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I work at McDonald restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to a college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fell for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.gothic!
I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal i've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees are a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tatoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist. :)
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
hmm... to stabbed another 5 peeps?
nahs, i'm the kinda person who dun always plays to the rules.
woohaaa....
so the 5 people are unnesccesary.
:P
4:52 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
ON 19 AUGUST.
damn... i m always blogging behind d actual dates.
cant be blame, tt a lit habit of mine.
kinda cropped up with my advertising stuff a few days ago.
BUT YEAH!!! it's finally over!
i forsaken my beauty slp in order to finish those posters.
quite happy with the final results.
hope i'll get a A for Advert.
Lately, i met Junyan.
-Junyan complained :"so bored, lets go jamming one day. i miss jamming la!"
-Me: " ok ok" *frowns
Lately i oso met Fai.
-Fai complained :" sian la. say wanna go jamming tt time in the end all busy. faster la, i wanna go jamming."
-Me: "ok ok " *shakes head
While hanging out with my dearest BunBoy
-Bun: " Dear... very boring sia. let's go jamming tml ok?"
-Me: " okok" *laffs
so eventually i got all these 3 complain kings together and Jam.
hmmm wad do you wan?
peanut jam, rasberry jam, or traffic jam ?
okok.. i'll stop my nonsense.
we went to Boon's place studio at Jackson macpherson.
jammed there for an hour. Althought it was just an hr, it was helluva fun and laughters. those dudes are always forevea fooling around.
didn reali prepare much for the jamming stuff cuz was too last min.
so i just quickly prints some tabs and poof!
off we go!
We concentrate on playing one song Zombie, by Cranberries.
i love that song for a lifetime, lemme tell ya it rock my socks.
there, as always Junyan is the guitarist (tt's y we called him guitarman)
Christina (me) is the bassist and sometimes vocalist. (Not reali my first time playing bass anywy, althoug i m always playing the guit.)
Bun... aiya... he is the technicial man, mike man, stupid man, 2nd guitarman, 2nd bassist, speakers killer man old man and dummer man.
ALL IS UNDER HIM, except for one thing!
but mainly, he is the drummer. hahaha...
HE IS NOT THE SINGER AND NEVER WILL BE.
gosh!
i've heard him sing. makes me feel like doomdays is nearing.
so... yea.. we know tt so we dun allow him to sing. ;p
Fai was our singer. the one and only singer.
our zombie was like...
a zombie soaking up with gasoline and running on high flames.
if u hear us... you know it.
eh... give u a hint.
a bullet train
our song is forever fast.
aiya, cant blame us.
we dun get together and jam much.
but overrall, we all love it.
:)
yeap, took a few videos.
but hahaha... i wont post it here.
XD
- when i was jamming, i feel like a star.
cheeros to my jam mates!
10:40 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
i am like a damn nut losing it's screw.
busy busy with project.
problems with friends.
arghs....
feel like sitting in the trolley and get pushed now.
to somehere wonderful.
running above all toubles.
no worries i said to myself.
the bad days will be forsaken
8:15 PM
as i expected.
like what i said, she wont understands.
funny it is.
i wanna laugh, not out of happiness, but a sense of surrel-ness.
is funny how u know and expect the someone to react after tt.
Chalet problem?
aint it solved long ago when i apologised to you sincerely?
and now u are digging it out.
and u claimed tt you've have been tolerating my shit always!?
oh.. so now u regard me as "i have alot of shit"
it's sad tt i m your friend and you think of me tt way.
but i gonna tell u, i aint got any shit.
is you.
you guys aint sulking tt day i must say.
if u guys did.
someone will eventually msg me and ask me how i felt.
nobody did.
and i sure u guys enjoyed.
good for u.
and like wad i said, you will not understand how i felt
and now u are digging out all the past shits just to shut me down.
wtf is this?
what is the past gonna do with this?
oh... and i m so sorry for all the vulgarities i sweared.
oh so sorry.
it's my lingo, too bad no one appreciates.
sometimes, i do put down my pride jus to say sorry to someone who i treasured.
but mayb to someone.
i was insignificance.
u said i didn thought how u guys feel when i send the msg to Miao?!
DID YOU EVEN THOUGHT OF HOW WILL I FEEL!?
when u send a simple bloodie msg of jus
"we never go already."
whilst we have been waiting for the past 45 mins?
and so on?
clueless and everything i felt.
mad and sad.
what u said is making no sense.
and where did i said u guys have to beg for forgiveness?
saying a simple sorry aint begging miss.
and i aint you.
you are lucky to have all the sistas all by ya side.
ever since we fall out, everybody seems to be concern abt u.
and less concerned abt me.
No calls nor msg from Huikee, Miao nor Min.
so maybe tt's y u think u dun have to apologise.
how would u feel if u were me?
jus think for a moment.
if u valued this friendship.
a sorry from u would had come even since it happened.
anyway, i do.
but it is up to u if u wanna let this matter rest.
i m not going to do anything abt this anymore cuz i feel i did nth wrong.
and i had already apologised in my incorrect part.
and if u feel u did nth wrong too.
go ahead.
anywy tt is how u always think.
arguing or standing up for ourselves is getting nowhere.
or maybe i shouldnt be a part of u guys anywy.
6:48 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i kinda pissed after reading somebody's blog where claiming tt i was childish becuz of some msg i sent.
it jus a few words of anger at tt instant.
she just dont understand.
She do not FEEL how i simply felt so she could call me wadeva she thinks.
but what reali triggered me sending tt kinda msg in the 1st place?
i was being L E F T O U T.
i have always felt left out in that group, it's has been bottling up in me for yrs. secrets and outings i was always the last one being told, or worst. never been told.
where everybody happily chill out and i was at the edge of the earth rotting.
which 2 words can described me in those years?
but i would always tell myself, everything will be or soon be over.
it will be fine.
tt is how i tolerated for the years.
Unfortuantely, the fine days did not or never will come.
And the volcano in me just flared tt day.
a short fuse i have indeed.
People who knows me understands.
She shld have know me.
and i know her.
she does not tolerate. or would nt even try to tolerate.
ooh well, she will never knows or understand the feeling of being left out becuz she always been so welcomed.
Life for her is easy. Having the looks and the great sociablity.
and what do i have?
For me is just a farking piece of ass life.
yea.. you guys did explained but i'm still at the top of my anger.
and i didn get any sincere "SORRY" from anyone.
and i mean SINCERE.
over the phone, over the msg i heard or seen on tt day was far far from sincere.
it was more to the "quickly get over this Christina shit."
tt's wad and how i felt
Can't you guys call me up the next day.
and say simply some comforting words "are u alright?"
i have always be hard at the outside, soft in the inside.
the simplest words will always melts me and i'll just let bygones be bygones.
but they just wouldn't bother.
so what can i do??
she claims tt i wanted to break THEIR darlingship.
so tt mean i was not in their darlingship anymore huh?
tt's quite saddening tt is she think i am trying to break u guys up.
i simply tell her that in the msg is to vent my own temper.
she wouldnt get easily influeced by it wouldnt she?
so where is tt part tt i'm trying to break u guys apart.
she even believes that i always think i am always right.
You think for yaself, how many times u did apologised when u reali did something wrong.
To be frank, there aint one to me.
i know myself. When i did something wrong. i apologised and i did in some occasion.
so whose the one claiming herself " think you are always right"
huhh ? ?
i know u are stubborn.
i can be too.
she even wrote tt "THEY" will not make peace to me anymore.
who are u to conclude that the whole darlings tt i have will nt befriend me anymore?
who are u? tell me? WHO ARE YOU?
God? Jesus? Virgin mary?
no... you are none of that.
not even a chance.
So who are u to stood out and take a stand for them.
You wont gif a damn abt me?
that is like usual.
that is what u always do,
cause you will think nothing is wrong with ya side of the story.
and please, this aint no quarrelling.
i'll just state this in case u blust up me with this kinda blog shit again.
;mad and misunderstood- shit happens and it did.
4:02 AM
my shoulders are aching for carrying back the sch camera.
naming it " Tua lian Gong" cam, by the name, it's obvious tt is BIG.
becuz it has somewhat like a guy having a big ass shit plugged into him.
i needed a pair of couples for my advert.
needa shoot some gruesome abusive scene.
raping scene ( without raping ), beating up scene (without getting anybody injuried) and another scene which i m still thinking of.
so CALLING WILLINGLY BOYS AND GIRLS OUT THERE.
arses...........
damn desperate
damn clueless
arghs...
got tired of thinking for my VSCP2 logo and i was lured into browsing deviant art. out of pure boredom.
saw this EXTREMELY CUTE illustraion.
simply a BAO. BUN !
i have always wanted to do designs related to BUNS.
cuz i love BUNS literally!
BENJAMIN CHAN BUN I MEANT
but proj kept flooding in.
arghs!
i think i needa build a dam to stoop them from flooding.
3:41 AM
